To Shi Xuan:

Sorry for hurting you in some ways with my hurtful words. I don mean to write out those words. I blame myself for whatever hurtful words that I have hurt you. I really felt very guilty for what I had write, and after I came back home, I just pray that I am able to use lappy, just to delete the post. But it seem to be too late, to let you read every single words and make you feel emotional down. I regreted and felt guilty!!! I should not have feel this ways, I should have understand you... A big Sorry to you, hope that you will forgave with my words.

having a long term friendship seem difficult
in some ways.
and there may be jealous expression
which may lead us to quarrel.
words + actions sometimes would really
hurt me alots
but I just chose to be quiet and pretend not to know anything
for what I know that this will not lead us to quarrel easily
But these time I felt guilty for not able to does that
to let you have the chance to feel hurtful
to let you feel bad toward yourself
to let you feel negatively
to let you think alot
to make your tears drop because of me
I'm sorry for what I write
I'm willing to hurt myself for making you feel hurt
to feel the hurt that I had gaven you
and I don blame you...

♥