God spoke to me after all the prayer that I have with Him this past few days. Yeah, there is idea more that I have to learn and grow in , to experience more new things in the outside world and get out of my comfort zone. Instead of avoiding, I should ask for help which may help me to grow and grow rather then letting it to stop growing or to stop experiencing new thing because of my shyness and my timid character and to let it rot away, which let me drift away from God.
Multiples of reasons and reasons only stop us and me to continue experience new things, and affected our spiritual growth. Because of reason over reason, we began to start using the same method of reason as a excuses....
Reason = Avoiding

And I admitted that I have not been taking out time to evaulate about my spiritual life. But instead of spending this short little time to evaulate, I run away and ingore the situation, and thought that it will be gone one day... But I am totally wrong. And after much thinking of this and that, I have set a goal of learning from my criticism and spending time to correct it, not to let my shyness to avoid attending/experiencing new things, to be more accountable to my sheperd and lots more...
There is still a long way for me to to grow more and more!!!

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