Went for MAD but in a rather tired spirit. Transformation! Yeah, whole chunk of bad things that I needed to change pop-out of my mind suddenly. Such as changing hate to love( just like how Jesus love us) for afew friends and don't let my character or emotion overtake the work of God such as shyness, fear, frighten etc etc~ And taking up a ministry which really encourage lots of courage for me due to my past life.
Pray for all sort of thing for TRANSFORMATION! And it's not only about pray already but without any action done! Yeah~ And it's about Pray+Action+Hardwork+applying=Transformation

So...
How am I going to change my heart of loving them instead of hate?
-Message my friends that I hate to tell them that I will work hard in not hating them and to go out once a week to build our friendship up! Not only that, i'm going to mass message every of my friend that knew that I doesn like her/him and told them that I'm going to accept them as my friend once again in my life =D Be prepared for e messages at tomorrow nite=)

How am I going to stop my character/emotional from overtaking God's work?
-Change my mindset of fearing/frightening to a, "I can do it"! Pray for courages and with a correct thinking instead of fearing it. Cast all my worries on Him! Rely on Him! Persuade myself!!! I'm not going to fear anything but to have a great mindset of anticpating God's work.

COME ON~~~
Carin Chua believe that she can do it! This Post is going to be a reminder of mine. I'm going to apply from what the sermon had preached today.
Joined Usher! No Fear...
Not only that! I'm going to re-read bible starting from John and to totally understand every sentence that I had read.
instead of rushing to read more due to hunger of learning more, but in a wrong way of learning more.

Though I know that something happen to me recently, but it's not going to be a downturn in my life! Gonna give life to the fullness!!!
To: "M" ,"J" , "Y", "S" and others
sorry if I had let you all to worry for me... Just don't wanna let my emotion get the better of me.

Daddy trying tactics to pursuade me to go Malaysia which is like in afew hours time. So I can mostly say that his tactics passed and most properly I'm going!!!

♥