Year 2009 have really been in the ups and downs for me, facing with family problems and running away from house and purposely going home at pass midnight, crying almost every night and even attempting to commit sucide, desire to become rebellious and even have the intention to become true ah lian. Not only that, got lock-out in times and running away from counsellor and even have to live with one of my cca teacher due to lock-out. Slashing myself in every small little hurt that I have recieve, using matchstick to burn my skin, using my head to bang against the wall, sliding against rough wall causing bruises, strangled my neck etc. When get bullied by classmates, all I could do was to cry inside my heart and to act strong infront of them, pinching my skin to hold on to my tears.

But things got into a change in March 21! Things wasn't great at first, slashing myself was what I haven quit during that period of time. But things slowly got to a change and my lively and laughters increases, with me patching up with youngest sister and mummy. Letting me to know the true self of how to handle with my hurt that I have face, and every little problem that I have face in my life.
Forgiving those who have hurt me previously and to let the past go off. Life was somehow so great and fun, meaningful and filled with great activites ahead of me. Building up my character to a better once and experiencing the love that is given to my friends and teachers and family members out there.
In times, difficulties do come, but I know the purpose of the problem is and that's what make me to stay firm even more.
God have been with me even when I haven knew Him, because whenever I walk home in the night in a narrow pathment, I could somehow feel that I'm totally safe and that someone is out there protecting me from any harm. Thanks Lord!
Maybe it's all planned to be like this.

Before

After


Knew more friends and even learn to create clique outings and chalet stay together. Had much fun with friends that I knew after I become more socialable such as XinYi, Shi Ping, MiQin, Siti which I have made and becoming closer to Angel and XinYi and not forgetting my best bud, Cindy. My serious 6 years bud, Cassie Foo and my annoyin sister, Cindy Chua. Hahaa, not forgetting eastas sister in christ out there whom have do a part in my life and also other friends and teachers who have truely mean alot to me...
Just wanna say I love you all alright???


So I'm gonna be 16 years old in few hours time =[
How sad am I!!!
But it's gonna be a renew year for me. I wanna buried behind all my pasts that I have made! But still missing the happy times with all my friends out there and God's blessing and uncondition love to me...
Hahaaa
This year birthday gonna be different once from my 15 years of life! I'm gonna make it a great once=]
Have recieved 2 birthday gifts which is two tests tomorrow!!! A gift that make me know that I must continue to strive hard for my studies.
Thats all~

Byee!


First time mummy buying me cake which I'm anticpating much=]

♥